FWIW, here is my USD 2021 total to date. The flat spots are bets that have not settled.
Happy to say that after digging myself a hole (just playing out the last death throes of the very loose betting I started to engage in at the end of 2020) , i'm now out of the hole.
Its important to show people, that we all go through bad runs and assuming you have been doing this for long enough and have a historically profitable track record, its probably not you. Its most likely variance and an unlucky patch.
Even though I haven't had a losing year since 2012, I still get lost in my thoughts when I am on a dry run. However variance always smooths itself out over time and with proper bank roll management ( which i personally believe is either the most important thing or right up there in top 3 ) we get to see that dry spell through to the other end and reap those rewards.
I wanted to post this now before the positive number got too obnoxious. Its easy to post big profit numbers, a bit more humbling to post not so good numbers